About me pages are the worst. I feel like I'm on a speed date. But a speed date with a platform. Talk about a nerve-wrecking first impression. Here we go.
My name is Kelly Gallagher. About a year ago, I was admitted to a mental hospital on suicide watch (great first impression right?)
Good news, I'm in recovery. I say recovery rather than recovered because the thoughts I used to have still meander in my brain, but I've learned healthy ways to combat them and I'm back in control of my life. I've spent the last 13 years spiraling down the tireless hell that is Mental Illness (aka MI for short). I want this blog to give a voice to those suffering and stuck in the traps of their minds. An honest voice, a scared voice, an angry voice. A voice. I want this to be a coping mechanism for those in any stage of recovery. I want it to be an inside look for friends who just want to help. Most importantly, this blog is about trying to reach anyone in the midst of giving up. I know what it's like to be there. It sucks. It's scary. It's isolating. I wouldn't pray MI on my worst enemy.
I know I tend to be perceived as two kinds of people. To some, my shyness mixed with fake sense of confidence has come off as arrogant and stuck up. To those who actually know me, I'm perceived as this happy, active, healthy, positive, perfectionistic, ball of sunshine kind of person My entire "outside" life has been my highlight reel. I show people that to hide my insecurities. To hide my fears. To hide what's really going on with me. But that's not honest. It makes me feel completely disingenuous. I'm ready to break the stigmas and stereotypes. I'm ready to be real.
My name is Kelly Gallagher.
My life is anything but perfect. But it's my life.
And I'm going to make it the best damn one I can.